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Starfighter OC FF: Memories 1

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Memories of a nobody: chapter 1-'Nightmares, jealousy n cigarrettes'

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"stop, please" I whispered, trying to find my way out without success.

i felt rough callous hands pressing my neck, chocking me. I scratched and punched at the person trying to force him to let me go, I elbowed his face and he released me for a moment, giving me seconds to run away from him. I ran as fast as I could not really being able to see in the darkness of the woods, once I thought I had left him behind I stopped to take some air, feeling safe until i heard a creepy laugh coming my way.

"U can run, little rabbit, but you cannot escape from the wolf" I heard his voice, speaking in a mocking tone next to my ear.

I jumped in fear and tried to escape again but it was of no use, he took a knife out of his belt and stabbed me on my side, making me fall to the ground in pain, he held me down and started to extrangulate me again, I stated to feel my body go numb and I cried in panic, I was in so much pain yet I was conscious enough to be able to tell someone was screaming but I was too scared to guess who it was.

"ahh!" I woke up cold sweating, finding myself being the one who screamed, I sat on the bed and breathed deeply, trying to stop my heart from going so fast.

I felt so tired, grabbed my PDA to check the hour, 9:00 AM "wow, now I feel like a bum" I had finally being able to sleep at 6:00 am. I stood up, grabbed a clean shirt and my cigarettes from the nightstand and leaved the room to the lunchroom.

I sat on a table near the entrance, facing the one Ogma, my partner, sat with his friends.

I cupped my face between my hands and took a deep breath again.

"Nightmares again?" I heard someone drag a chair next to me.

"Yeah, I barely slept last night, well, more like this morning" I took a puff out of my cigarette trying to relax "feel like shit"

I turned my gaze to him and saw him look at me full of care with those abnormally innocent green eyes of his. I knew he cared for me the same way i did for him, we were almost family but still, I can't stand when people look at me like that, almost with petty.

I avoided his eyes and turned to stare the table where Ogma was, I saw Wynter lean closer to his face and say something to him. I clenched my fists and with a lot of effort I managed to control the impulse of go, beat the crap out of him and steal Ogma away.

I felt hurt as I saw him laugh of Wynter's comments 'I can´t even make him smile'.
Hotei noticed I wasn't paying attention to him anymore and instead followed my stare knowing what he'll find "has he told you he loves you back?"

I laughed bitterly "as if! He asked for time, shouldn't have told him, he doesn't even know me that well, bet he hates my ass now"

"You don't know that! He asked for TIME, means u still got a chance, just step it up"

"Hah, that hot red head is too stubborn, I don't even know what to do anymore to make him like me, I'm no good for love. I better just give up"

He slapped the back of my head and stared at me angrily "stop being so stupid! That is not true, Jao proved it to you, didn't he?!" Hotei's facial expression changed from anger to regret, he knew 'Jao' was a taboo theme with me but even if indeed I felt my chest hurt when I heard his name, I faked a smile trying to hide it from him even when I knew it was useless.

I spotted his fighter starring at us and didn't like it a bit, He tried to apologize but before he got himself in deeper shit, I changed the subject.

"How 'bout you and Mithra? Told him already who you are?" he shook his head in denial; I pet his hair with my free hand and gave him my cigarette as I stood up.

"He's comin', imma go take sum rest, c-ya" I walked away back to the room leaving him there with Mithra.

I walked into the room Ogma and I shared, for a moment I considered lying on bed, I didn't feel like training at the moment and I couldn't sleep either, but I didn't want to take the chance of Ogma seeing me as I was right now.

I looked for a place to hide and saw the closet, step inside, closed the door and sat on the floor. It had a dim green light but it was almost in darkness, making me feel comfortable.

I stared the closet's door with a blank expression 'why am I hiding?' I thought 'am I that afraid of him?' I didn't need an answer, I was afraid of being hated by the one I loved; I knew he hated weakness and I didn't want to give him more reasons to hate me.

I saw the pack where I kept my personal belongings safe, took out a container full of white wine, something I had won on a bet with some guys at the cargo deck, I brought it to my lips and gulp it down, scrunching up my face at the burning feeling on my throat and enjoyed the not so bitter taste in my mouth, I hadn't noticed how much I had missed the feeling a drink gave, it felt good after years of being totally sober.


How I wished I could see his face again, the one who saved me from my personal hell, one of the many I wasn't able to protect. I could still remember the day my life was crushed into pieces for the very first time…and the second time. It had disappeared so fast, leaving me to wonder it it was all real or just a dream.




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will continue...
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EDITED!
( BTW I PLAN ON EDITIN THE OTHARS PLZ BE PATIENT :D)

this is enyo's present, kk? :3 POV

i knooow it wuz short n crap but just wait i promise it'll get bettah :>

i just needed an intro :D

bout the pic on the top?...nuthin im just a Taehun-holic X3
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Can I edit it for you?

:3 I like it, but I feel like I should edit the grammar